Why I do the 5Rhythms?

Why I do the 5Rhythms?

I do this practice because it works.
It has profoundly transformed me over the years. Really. It has. It’s like I’ve got these layers and layers of stifling bandages wrapped around my mind, heart and body and bit by bit the 5Rhythms unravels me.
It reveals me.
In the process I gain more and more confidence to show those parts that have been hidden. I get more emboldened. More willing to take a risk being just me.
As I am.
Which makes me want to do this practice more.

Underneath these constrictive strips is this fresh, unique, colourful, dynamic – me at my core – self.
I long to be seen.
And it also scares the complete shit out of me.
Then I want to hide: Because what if I showed you all of the inner stuff and it, I, wasn’t good enough? Then what?
So I play this back and forth game, I’m good enough, no I’m not, I’m good enough, no I’m not.
Yah. Whew. Frankly, it’s exhausting.
So, me doing the 5Rhythms means that I have less and less of these mental reindeer games.

I am way more comfortable showing you who I am, what I feel, what I think and stand for and what I really want to wear.
Seriously, what I want to wear has been a huge transformation for me over the years; directly correlated to me doing the 5Rhythms practice.
Before the 5Rhythms, I used to wear some crazy, baggy, non-revealing, black and dark blue shirts and pants, and short sleeved black ribbed knit turtlenecks and was scared to wear any make-up.
My first in-my-20s lipstick was called buff naked- namely because you couldn’t see it on the lips- and I would put it on and then immediately blot it out, because I was terrified of being judged for wearing make-up.
These were the things that were my self-limiting patterns at the time, the keep me in my tight box bound up in strips, patterns that certainly didn’t serve me at all.
You have yours. I have mine.
We all have the boxes that don’t fit and keep us caged, we each have our own cages that we chose, and chose us.
My main flavor has to do with you judging me as not being good enough, and, before 5Rhythms, a buff naked lipstick would lock my cage down and there would be no revealing.

Thank god I found 5Rhythms.

I walked onto my first 5Rhythms dance floor in August of 1999.
So scared. So limited. So NOT feeling special or unique.
Anxious that I would never break free of myself; of the prison I had created in my mind that kept me trapped and small.
When I left this class I was confused. I felt different.
I got a waft of the cool, fresh breeze from THE OTHER SIDE: The yard outside the prison, the free side.
This caught my caught my attention.
And kept me coming back. And back. And back.

5Rhythms has bolstered my courage. I take bigger risks, emotional and otherwise, to be seen, to show my uniqueness.
14 years later, I am freer than I’ve ever been in my life.
It has taken discipline to show up each and every time to this highly unpredictable 5Rhythms territory and keep moving.
I’m not looking back. I’m under the fence and running for freedom.

That’s why I do the 5Rhythms.

Comments

  1. WOW!
    Thank you for turning yourself inside out for all of us to see and hear!
    Am in need of 5Rhythms now!
    Needed to hear this inspiration!
    Thank you!!!!

    • Anne Marie Hogya :

      Jane, you do offer and have so much to continue to offer this world! …and the 5Rhythms SO helps to get things moving. There are classes in Vancouver and on Vancouver Island, let me know where you are and I can give you the contact info.

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